F33lings @ 21072009

It is raining now...
From the morning, when I woke up...
The day is cloudy...
Somehow, this is what i feel since yesterday night...
I am just waiting for the sky to rain...
I had cried through the night...
I really hate this feeling...
Maybe i will loss a friend from that moment on...
I am very confuse...
I don't really want to loss a friend but if it didn't work out then why do we have to continue?
We have been struggling to make our friendship works out...
But I am just running from the problem and give myself lots and lots of reasons...
And that's the friendship of more than a year...
'He' told me he was very tired...
Very tired since a long time ago...
Actually I have the same feelings...
And maybe because of this...
I admit that I have not treated 'him' correctly too...
There are so much stress in this friendship...
It's been a hard time for me and 'him'...
'He' has been sad because of this friendship...
Than forcing the friendship to go on and make the both of us unhappy...
Why not end it now?
I have alr try my best to maintain this friendship...
But it just turn up this way...
I have cried many times bacause I really hate arguing...
And make our friendship turns sour...
I don't really know what to do anymore...
Now that it's in this situation...
Enough of sadness and enough of crying for a day...
Life have to goes on too...
I know I cant be sad forever...
There are other expectation that I have to met...
Start living on...
Although I may still be sad...
Because this is the first time I may have to end a friendship~~